Far Beyond the Sun

2004-06-08T06:23:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna make an album which no one will listen to simply cuz no one will like it and everyone will hate it.Everyone will just throw it away into the garbage and say its the worst piece of shit fuck ass music i have ever listened to.They will complain for days and say that its a total waste of time.They will shun me when i ask them to jam with me;and give me lame excuses.Everyone will think i am

2004-05-11T03:14:00.000-07:00

"i myself can't see what they (other people...duh) see" shit man this really explains what i see in me. I mean what issit in me? I dun even know who the fuck i am and sometimes i don't even wanna know. Not that it scares me or anything but well...just .... well knowing would probably make me real miserable. The again this is me, always lost but nothing to find. Ironic huh.I'm fuck ass tired and

2004-05-02T07:09:00.000-07:00

Fucking hell its been a while ain't it ...Godam it i'm been so fucking frustrated for the past week. Looking back ... all that 6years of blistering fingers and wrist with inflamed tendons ; sweaty palms on rusty strings and cuts, and what does boil down to ? Nothing .......absofuckinglutely nothing. I ain't asking for much, hell man i'd play for a church ... and seriously i fucking hate the hype

2004-03-15T06:02:00.000-08:00

Heya long time no see yeah ...oh well ... "Its hard to live when everyone seems to be better than you" - OK i said that lah .... But its true ... everyone seems to be better than me ...well yeah ... i guess my purpose is to be useless to make everyone else useful eh .. hehe .. oh well its ok ... thats my life ..ever boring ... shitty ... nothing much happening.... i'm just wasting my time

2004-01-22T02:53:00.000-08:00

Ok this poem i wrote i actually wrote it today but i edit what i wrote on that day so thats why it came out on that day not today ..anyway yeah

2004-01-15T03:22:00.000-08:00

Here's a poem i wrote i kinda like it Sail Away: Like a boat in the calm plethora of water Its sail flush against the welkin The wind exhales And the woodless sea stays silent The boat glissades delicately across the ocean With no pang With no ghastly turn of the eye Only acquainted to the endless path set before it Ever in ambulation But yet with no destination

2004-01-14T05:34:00.000-08:00

Today wasn't a very good day ... fucing bad one. I think i think too much ... too deep....drives me crazy .. ..but yet i am deeply sadened by this fact. The more i ask why the more i want to know...when the conclusion comes and it says i don't want anything...i dig deeper to find out why. I wish i could kill millions by my command ...i would force mothers to kill thier children and fathers to

2004-01-14T03:07:00.000-08:00

Dam

2004-01-10T23:49:00.000-08:00

Yes yes shut the fuck up i'm still alive goddam it. ...oh shit the last 2 entries were soooooooo shit the writing has no structure and it just totally lame and has no substance whatsoever fuck man i'm losing my writing ... goddamit i've been dying to wtrite something anything but can't ...fuck man ... this sux ...ahhh .. fuck i dunno why i'm so frustrated .....and my vocabulary is shrinking ...

2003-12-26T23:53:00.000-08:00

I am nothing I am nobody but it doesn’t matter; if God want to make my life rather miserable go ahead I won’t stop him. I have come to terms that I am worthless and am pretty dam insignificant. But I don’t really care because no one does so why should I? I only want to do 1 thing in life and I’m willing to give anything up, I’ve thrown so many things away, but I now know I’m going nowhere in this

2003-12-17T02:50:00.000-08:00

Here's.....something I dunno how write this ... i really don't. What i want to explain is the atrocities that is happening in my heart. The closes example i can use is world war 2. My heart is Germany, my emotions and feelings are the Jews. Except in the end.....almost all the Jews get killed and no there is no help from America. I slaughter them torture them starve them so that they will never

2003-12-09T05:29:00.000-08:00

Ok sorry shit man that time dam pissed off oh well i've been meaning to update this piece of shit but never got around it i've got stuff i wanna say /write but well nows not a good time... ok this is just a reminder to tell you that i'm alive .... but not well .... as usual lah ah ... fuck .... oh well its not nice hogging the office net should be more considerate

2003-11-26T08:33:00.000-08:00

Sigh* i'm feeling really fucking annoyed right now is fucking urgh....you know what i'm just gonna say it out..i'm gonna take all the dislikes i have of people and blow it real big sorry i just fucking need to destress myself so here goes: I FUCKING HATE YOU ALL I WISH YOU ALL COULD JUST ROT IN HELL AND LET SATAN FUCK YOU WITH HIS HORNS AND STICK DYNAMITE UP YOUR ASSES. AND MAY YOU DIE WITH A

2003-11-25T06:02:00.000-08:00

Heya yeah wa liews today went out with Sadies parents......STRESS STRESS STRESS is all that i can say .. i've got a thing for parents ...they kinda freak me out. *crys; waaaaaaaaaaaaaa* Sadie and Shannen both started working now got no one to hang out with...nowleft with Sam ... lol :X ... aye dun get me wrong i ain't looking for a stead just a nice girl to hang out with. So far its Shannen and

2003-11-20T02:54:00.000-08:00

OK i;ll get to you on that poem later ok ... Goddamit i felt like shit yesterday i pissed Sadie off .... oh dearie ... well its ok now...but well i felt really extremely bad yesterday ....cuz i told her i would meet her and then i called back and said i wouldn't be able to make it because my freinds were driving round and round and i thought at the rate thier going there's no way i can ever meet

2003-11-14T10:26:00.000-08:00

Hmm its been a while since i updated this thing. Just watched matrix with Sadie YAY! hehehehe then we went to her place for a while .... *wink wink* wahahahahah neh nth happened .... or did it ... hahahha .. now i made u think lol. Oh well matrix was ... alright ... soso if u look at the storyline its like a computer game but if u look at the themes its philosophical so yea ... anyway i think

2003-11-01T17:52:00.000-08:00

Had a rather.... hmm interesting(?) weekend. I boguht George Orwell 1984. Interesting book; then headed to starbucks, sat read and soaked my stomach with a cafe machiatto. There was a girl sitting all alone reading, decided to sit diagonally across from her facing her opposite direction. Not so much to look at her (ok a little bit of that) but more of to set a contrast. She was reading a

2003-10-25T23:04:00.000-07:00

Just some quotes I am a musician the world doesn't want; a guitarist the world doesn't need Hobbies are done to past time, but passion needs time to past.

2003-10-23T21:34:00.000-07:00

Damm i keep writing poetry

2003-10-23T11:13:00.000-07:00

Goddamit i feel like shit ......as usual lah ah. Anyway here's another poem Roses that bloom extends to the corners of the world A radiant red blush Ever glowing in the sunlight Its green stalk sits in harmony Yet blind to us are the claws Which shatters all bliss Penertrating into flesh Blood flows The flower grows Indifferent to all Displaying such apathy Man envys the rose Are we envious

2003-10-19T07:00:00.000-07:00

Sadie's in Aus ... shit man i haven't even slept in my own bed for the past week been fucking busy ... fuck army man. Anyway met her the day b4 she left .... had the worse food and whats worse mostly i order one! .. liew ..ok the ice cream cake was nice .... but later that night we has something that tasted real good *wahahahahaha* -blush- *tsk*tsk what u thinking of sia ......... :P Yah so

2003-10-10T02:51:00.000-07:00

Sigh* .......... i'm feeling real fucked ... again ... i'm gonna be deployed at some rooftop of some pub ..well i hope if not then its gonna be the jungle for me ... Mt Faber to be specific well i duno how the fuck i got involved .... fucking hell all because of MR "oh i am so important egomaniac" president "son of a fucker bitch" has some stupid confrence ..I MEAN WHO THE FUCK WOULD ATTACK FROM

2003-10-09T07:05:00.000-07:00

HOLY FUCKING SHIT MY PHONE BILL WAS $900 calls to indo ..........Sadie please don't gimme ur Indo no. cuz my dad's gonna kill me if this happens again.... i lost all my enteries ................. shiiiiiiiiits .......oh well ........... Sigh* i'm feeling real fucked .....today was not bad .... but on the other days ..... was jsut shit .... I read a book called there's nothing wrong with you ...

2003-10-04T10:38:00.000-07:00

heylo .... dam i'm bored .... just came back Sadie bought me VCDs YAY! ... thankie hehe .. had dinner with her ... AND HER MUM ! . ... tum tum TUM! But it wasn't that bad ... you know this was one of my few attempts to try and start a conversation that actually worked out ....it really wasn't that bad ...one of the few times i was actually rather talkative ... but when i went out with her l8er (

2003-09-29T08:50:00.001-07:00

Shit i'm on duty but i can use the comp...sigh* freind just asked me to try out go jamming and stuff with him i dunno i'm still kinda edgy bout that.... Sadie's been real bz .... kinda miss her hehe .... oh well its ok .... i mean she has her things and i .... i don't have much to do ... God dammit i wanna take guiar lessons but just keep like procastinating it i dunno why...maybe it as just

2003-09-29T08:50:00.000-07:00

2003-09-28T05:57:00.000-07:00

Just finished watchibng the pianist ...liew it was like ....i imagine myself as him ... i'm willing to go through all that shit just to be where he is at.... but anyway that doesn't matter cuz i don't.... SADIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ..leme see .......... u owe 2 HUGS AND A MOVIE! And i owe u 4 HUGS LOL ...hahaah how was your "wedding" :P Met me ex yesterday ..............yes yes i actually went

2003-09-27T10:03:00.000-07:00

Hello ... just FYI i don't really intend to decorate my blog cuz i'm no computer expert. I can't be bothered.Anyway who the fuck would rad my blog anyway..there's nth much in herwe anyway. Sigh* ... i've gave up jamming....yeah i'm pretty fucking sad...but thats life.All my hopes and dreams come chrashing down...as hendrix put it "castle made of sand slips into the sea, eventually". Well my

2003-09-27T08:47:00.000-07:00

HOLY FUCKING SHIT MAN ITS BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME...i lost all my info about my fuck man i got so much shit i wanna say dunno when to start.... i'm in the army now ... well obviously and ITS FUCKING SUX . i'll get back to you another day ka cherios

2002-12-08T22:53:00.000-08:00

poem: The Heart The rain comes All is swept away The mud runs like silk All is wet, yet all is fresh The rain came All was swept away The mud ran like silk All was wet, yet all is still fresh

2002-12-08T22:42:00.000-08:00

Hey pplz... if ur still out there.Sj's been dying for me to log in here so well yeah here i am.I'm not feeling too good....army 13dec... FUCK SOMEONE KILL ME PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIFE SUX ....yeah just my bad side talking.....anyway Sj's not been feeling well as well...i feel like praying, even though i know it doesn't worx i just kinda feel like it. Leah left for Thailand for holiday, wanted

2002-10-24T05:46:00.000-07:00

Last day of skool.Coool. Just came back from speech night, bloody boring. Had to listen to principle et. al. talk cock for like 3hrs straight. It is also custmory that everyone recieves a bible..... Not feeling too good,i feel like i've not acheived anything.Most of my freinds recieved and award, but not me. I wish i could receive one for outstanding guitar award.Dammit man i'm wiling to work my

2002-10-22T04:43:00.000-07:00

Shit ass man exams are like in a week or so .. i'm leaving school everything is just fucked! haven't studied dun know jack shit ! Well i found out my i ranked 59 in the whole skool and my predicted score would be mid 90s .. YAY .. but that is if i keep up with my work.. shit man time is running out .. this place is dieing man no one reads this shit no more man !

2002-10-07T00:09:00.000-07:00

Hello. Sigh* exams are approaching, nervouse, stress, sian .. yet sometimes i just don't care. Anyway my corn is bleeding, that worries me, it hasn't stop bleeding yet.... i am a bit worried about that. I miss my home, family, freinds, i just got here and its my first day of school since the term break and i'm feeling homesick. On top of that i know that this is my last year here and that i

2002-09-17T09:06:00.000-07:00

Beyond these horrid walls Lies a picturesque view One which can only contain All that is in harmony The air knows no ignorance And filled with bliss The water, where the gods arised from The lush evergreen fields Flowers that bloom like the baby's footsteps So look beyond such boundary To where things are innocent To where we can be We are but flesh and bones Forever limited by death But a

2002-09-17T09:04:00.000-07:00

Bring me the key, the key which can open the sealed door. Bring yourself back to the moment when voices knows no screams, when eyes knows no tears, when the mind body and soul is innocent. Time is of the essence,but not when your new. Be silent, don't think and you won't move. Movement is the very cause of the damage that has occured on you. All your fears and pains are cause by movement.

2002-09-03T02:14:00.000-07:00

Lay beside me in the fields of infinite greens, the sky is crystal blue. Look beyond the rain, where the gods roam.From the frozen waters, the king will rise, once now, and never again. The hand which feeds life,to the eye which catches light, all things in harmony. The air filled with bliss,yet ignorance is not an option. So lay beside me and tell me, within this vague soul what do you see? Is

2002-08-29T02:29:00.000-07:00

Hi again. Nothing much to say or write in here.well i dunno. Sometimes i wonder why i dun feel as close as i was to her anymore.I mean its like i dun want to talk to her anymore,i don't know why, i dun hate her or anything but i suppose we're just not that close anymore.Maybe i'm trying to move on,expand my horizons... ah fuck man i seem to be desperate to know more people,maybe i'm lonely,i

2002-08-21T00:15:00.000-07:00

Sigh* ... i dunno why people laugh at me all the time.I always end up doing stupid things so that people can laugh at me. I'm like a toy, a clown, laughed at all the time,put down all the time,i don't understand why and maybe i just don't want to. My freinds laugh at me, but at least they care sometimes, people who know me just laugh and thats it. Everything i do is never good, no one appreciates

2002-08-14T02:03:00.000-07:00

I typed this in my MSN groups forum thingy .. i liked it alot... its not the best porche piece of writing and i did copy some of it fromy older blogs ... anyway here goes. First i don't want to kill myself,i'm to scared to die too hateful to live. I mean what do i have to live for? Nothing absolutely nothing, nothing is happening, nothinhg to look forward to, everywhere you turn you see someone

2002-08-12T22:34:00.000-07:00

Sigh* .... i feel pretty shit honestly speaking. F*CKING GOT FINED AT THE F*CKING TRAIN STATION for 100 F*CKING BUCKS!! F*CK THOSE F*CKING MET PEOPLE I WISH THEY WILL ALL DIE AND SUFFER IN BRIMESTONE AND FIRE AND SATAN WILL F*CK THEM UP THE ASS WITH A BASEBALL BAT WITH THORNS AND THIER SOULS WILL SUFFER ETERNAL DAMNATION, MIND SUFFER ETERNAL ISOLATION AND BODY ETERNAL EVER LASTING PAIN WITHOUT

2002-08-07T02:41:00.000-07:00

'm sick of it sick of caring sick of it all. I decided that if "your nothing special, don;t kid yourself" All these years i've been kidding myself. I'm nothing, and will never be anything. I can't be bothered caring, i can't give a dam much about anything. I live with no meaning, no purpose, no will. I am a dead man walking. My burning passion has burnt me like an inocently accused witch burnt on

2002-08-02T07:06:00.000-07:00

Sigh* sometimes i wonder why i always make the wrong choices in life. Everyone else's chioce seem to be better than mine... well at least those that i know. F*CK MAN I mean everything is just F*CKED.... seriously I dunno what to do now, to be angry or to be sad, or to around and start killing people or start loving them. They all seem like a good idea at the same time....

2002-07-31T01:00:00.000-07:00

Hiho. its me again.... aiyah ... sian i hate to sit here and complain about life....but what else can i say? Life really sucks, dammit if i keep going on and on about how lfie sucks no one's gonna read this.But then what the hell am i suppose to write? I'm being honest here, not fabricating anything. Sometimes i really feel like giving up my dream of forming a band and writing music and just

2002-07-27T08:17:00.000-07:00

Hi all me again ... just watched Stigmata on DVD, it was an OK show ... nothing much. Although it got me interested in the research for this extra Gospel. Again my saga continues ... where i aimlessly walks the streets with no namees and wander through the nothingness that life has brought me. Sometimes i how do we derive to question our existence? I mean yeah the famous "why are we here" and "

2002-07-22T21:17:00.000-07:00

"if you want to i can save you all you wanted wad somebody to care" .. AHHH that song is stuck in me head.. i mean its an alright song ... and Michelle Branch is ..er ok lah quite chio lah {pretty lah alamak} BUT ITS IRRITATING ! i mean its EVERYWHERE i go siak <-- no pun intended hehehe Anyway me is skipping PE.. i know i shouldn't but alright fine i'm lazy...i mean the role was marked but i

2002-07-22T00:38:00.000-07:00

Sigh* You walk through life aimlessly only to find out that you are insignificant in this benign world. Everyone seems to look at you from above, high up in the clouds,where the eagles soar and where the cream of the crop shall stay.and you ? Alone ..... on the ground walking ... aimlessly... banging into them ..... your alone .....only you. Nothing seems right... everything is against you your

2002-07-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

Hiho SHIT!!!! MY ICQ F*CKING UP ON ME AGAIN {i try not to swear in here just in case......oh you don't know who might be reading this..maybe my mom.....!!} <---- OK fine call me paranoid...i'm just being careful....anyway YES I AM PISSED OFFED BECAUSE MY ICQ KEEPS SCREWING UP ......as u know i'm not good with computers.... On the brighter side just watched MIB 2 wif me kawans. It was alright...

2002-07-19T02:46:00.000-07:00

Dammit my stupid IE6 is screwing up.I'm sick of my computer i wish i can sell the dam thing and get a toshiba satellite. Anyway.... again Life is boring here in boarding house... BTW i study in Melbourne Australia....but i'm from Singapore.Which raises another issue..... THE S'PORE GOVERMENT SUX! well too some extent it does. Anyway as i was saying .... me kawan {Freind in malay} got new

2002-07-18T00:14:00.000-07:00

ok hello. Well yeah good i got me bloggy up and going. Aye.. can't find any nice templates. Sigh* feel like shit today. Like any other day... .feel so useless. Well anyway you know i was pretty excited that i manage to get this blog thingy going, but now that i have it i just don't know what to write. Its like there's nothing to write about when you want to write something. Does that happen to

2002-07-17T17:45:00.000-07:00

YAY manage to get me bloggy to work .. heheheheh lalala me sooo happy .. lalala AAAAAAAAAHHH ME SO SCREWED!!!! Why i also dunno

2002-07-17T17:39:00.000-07:00

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